Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Appointment with Oncologist

I saw my oncologist on the 24th and he was very pleased that I was doing so well. He has ordered another PET scan. Since he knows my wishes about future treatment he wanted to know if I wanted to know the results or just wait it out to see what happens - if the cancer is growing - if it has localized to one area, etc. He is a little concerned about my lungs since I have an unexplained cough, but he said they sound okay. I told him that I want to know what is going on each step of the way. He said that if I changed my mind about chemo or radiation - or not - he would support my decision.

He was very pleased that I am losing weight and that I go to the Y four times a week. My blood pressure was really low and I asked him about it. He wanted to know if I was light-headed or tired - yes to both! He said that it looked like my new program was working (the Y and WW) and that I may need to alter my BP medication. He wanted to do 1/2 a pill/day and then said not to take them at all. Each day that I did not take my BP pill my blood pressure went up a little. On the third day it was obvious that I cannot go off my medication. I don't think I need the full strength but I do need something. I just have to get it figured out. It is a good thing that I told him that I would monitor it at home - I have a BP kit. So far it is all over the place.

The next step will be the PET scan. I am feeling very positive about it and a little nervous at the same time. I still need lots of prayer.

A Little Inconvenience

I wish I had some really fun stuff to put on my blog - life is just too serious right now.

My PCP's nurse called me week before last. She wanted to know when I was going to do more mammograms, etc. I told her the story and later that day my PCP called me. I have really not seen her since this whole thing started because all I see now are specialist. So, I explained to her what I had decided about the breast biopsy, etc. I told her that I would be seeing my oncologist soon and he was going to order another PET scan at that time. She was okay with that but asked if I had any other problems going on right now in light of all that I have been through. Well, yes, but I hesitated to tell her. I have been smelling smoke for awhile now. She was very concerned about it. She called my oncologist and then called me back a couple of days later. After talking for a bit she decided to treat me aggressively for a sinus infection first - I had a few symptoms but nothing major and that morning did wake up with a sore throat and a deep cough. I am taking 6 pills a day - two different antibiotics plus Sudafed, the one you get from the pharmacy now, a nasal spray (I cannot pronounce it) that is prescription and sinus wash twice a day, for 14 days. I would say that is aggressive.

The alternative, if this does not clear up, is an MRI to see if there is something going on in the frontal lobe with the nerve that controls smell. I have always heard that when someone smells smoke that it had something to do with the pituitary gland - not sure if that is true or not. Apparently what they would be looking for here would not show up on the PET scan so that would be - MRI.

Yes, the antibiotics are helping even though they are doing a number on me. I still smell a little smoke at different times. I will be through with the regimen on Friday and we will just have to wait and see what happens.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Happiness Is A Journey ~by Father Alfred D'Souza

Happiness is a journey, not a destination.
Dance as though no one is watching you.
Love as though you have never been hurt before.
Sing as though no one can hear you.
Live as though heaven is on earth.
~~~
For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin -- real life.
But there was always some obstacle in the way,
something to be gotten through first,
some unfinished business,
time still to be served, a debt to be paid.
At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.
This perspective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness.
Happiness is the way.
So treasure every moment you have and remember that
time waits for no one.
Happiness is a journey, not a destination.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

It's In The Valley I Grow

Sometimes life seems hard to bear,
Full of sorrow, trouble and woe
It's then I have to remember,
That it's in the valley I grow,

If I always stayed on the mountain top,
And never experienced pain,
I would never appreciate God's love,
And would be living in vain.

I have so much to learn,
And my growth is very slow,
Sometimes I need the mountain tops,
But it's in the valley I grow.

I do not always understand,
Why things happen as they do,
But I am very sure of one thing.
My Lord will see me through.

My little valleys are nothing,
When I picture Christ on the cross
He went through the valley of death;
His victory was Satan's loss.

Forgive me Lord, for complaining,
When I'm feeling so very low.
Just give me a gentle reminder,
That it's in the valleys I grow.

Continue to strengthen me,Lord,
And use my life each day
To share your love with others,
And help them find their way.

Thank you for valleys, Lord,
For this one thing I know
The mountain tops are glorious,
But it's in the valleys I grow!

~by Jane Eggleston