"You've kept track of my every toss and turn through the sleepless nights, Each tear entered in your ledger, each ache written in your book."~Psalm 56:8 (The Message)
“It is amazing how one so powerful can love one so lowly as to know every tear that has fallen." ~Lance Gargus
One of the things that I have learned is that you cannot walk away from cancer you must take a stance. Along with God’s direction, I feel that I am taking a stance that is right for me. I have made the decision not to fight the cancer but to embrace the life that I have left until my day comes to meet God face-to-face.
This past week the reality of cancer came tumbling down on me like an avalanche and became overwhelming. I had to make some very hard decisions about my living arrangements for the duration of my illness. I can honestly say that this is the first time I have really, really cried. There are so many decisions to make; selling my house, where to live, what to take with me, finding a place where I can take my cats, etc. - I just wanted to walk away from it all. I am sure that there are going to be other days in the future when I still have these feelings and I know that my friends will be there to support me.
One of the things that I have learned is that you cannot walk away from cancer you must take a stance. Along with God’s direction, I feel that I am taking a stance that is right for me. I have made the decision not to fight the cancer but to embrace the life that I have left until my day comes to meet God face-to-face.
This past week the reality of cancer came tumbling down on me like an avalanche and became overwhelming. I had to make some very hard decisions about my living arrangements for the duration of my illness. I can honestly say that this is the first time I have really, really cried. There are so many decisions to make; selling my house, where to live, what to take with me, finding a place where I can take my cats, etc. - I just wanted to walk away from it all. I am sure that there are going to be other days in the future when I still have these feelings and I know that my friends will be there to support me.
Sharing my personal feelings is one of the hardest things that I have ever done. Please continue to pray for me through this journey.
1 comment:
Kathy,
Please know that we are thinking of you daily and will continue to have you in our daily prayers.
It is very hard to share the most personal parts of your life and those major decisions we have to make having incountered cancer. I do know that for us, once we did, it truly did help us.
Placing your life into God's hands is all we can do. And lean on our family. Please know you do have family all over that will be here for you.
Love from your cousins in Texas,
Melodie
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